Have you looked into the eyes of a man whose heart has been broken, ripped out? I have. Twice now. The first time was December of 2013. My husband of 21 years was told he had to go home from a job he had been looking forward to for several months. Why was he "put out of service"? He had been shot. Yep. September 11 he was shot by trespassers on private property as he was performing his duties as a railroad track supervisor. Two days later he was accused of shooting himself. The lunacy of that accusation still baffles me to this day. The only thing that kept him going, that kept him working hard in recovery and then physical therapy, was the knowledge that he would get to go back to work. He had been working for the railroad for 12 years. He provided amply for our family so that I could stay home with our two children. His desire was to continue to do that. That desire was not granted. He was fired January 7. I saw that look in his eyes then.
Today I saw that heart-broken look again. I looked into the eyes of my Crossfit coach. He is leaving. That's all I know. I can only surmise that it is not because he has chosen to leave.
I know, without a doubt, that my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, is sovereign, omnipotent, omnipresent, absolute justice, and love. Everything that happens in our lives happens for a reason. Everything. It is for our good, for our growth, for teaching us to depend utterly and completely on the God of the universe.
In retrospect, I can look back over the last year and a half and see changes in our lives because of hubby's temporary job change. I know those changes wouldn't have happened if he had continued on the same road he was traveling down. His health has improved, and our relationship has grown. He has been able to attend life-changing events in our children't lives. It has been good.
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